Why bother decorating your home?
There is something I have been struggling with since I started this blog two years ago. I love to decorate. I love to create and DIY and find treasures and paint and arrange and all of the other wonderful things I share here.
I don’t really know that I believe those things are important. And if they are not important, then why am I spending so much time on them. And if I am totally honest, why am I spending so much money as well? Because even when you buy picture frames for $1 and tables for $10, that stuff still adds up, especially when you add in the cost of all your paint and other DIY stuff.
I was watching Toddlers and Tiaras on Netflix the other night. (I know, I know it is total trash and goes against pretty much everything I stand for – but it is still oddly fascinating. It’s such a train wreck, it’s like I can’t look away). So anyway, one of the pageant moms was talking about how she has spent over $100,000 dollars on beauty pageants for her six year old. And I was so appalled thinking about all of the other things in this world that money could have been used for. Education, food, water, shelter… things that actually matter. And then I stopped and thought about all of the things I spend my money – and time – on that also don’t really matter at all. Our new rug. New jeans. Interesting vintage stuff that has no purpose beyond sitting on a shelf looking interesting and vintage. None of these things are bad. But when you really think about it, none of them are actually good either. They are just things.
Why am I worrying about buying things and creating things when there are people I love that I could be spending time with and amazing books to read and beautiful new places to explore?
And why am I spending money on great things for my house when there are so many people in this world who are praying every night just to have a home at all?
I’m really just not completely sure of the answer to that. I know some of what I think on the subject, but I never quite feel satisfied with my answers.
I decorate because I want to make our house our sanctuary full of things that are meaningful to our family.
I decorate because it makes me feel at peace in our home.
I decorate because I love to see beauty all around me.
I decorate because I love to. I love the process and I love the results.
Is that so bad? No, I don’t think so. But is that a good enough reason? I don’t know.
The only answer I have really come up with that feels like a good enough reason is this quote:
I do want that. And I truly think that creating something beautiful in our home is something I have a talent for.
And I love it.
Where does that leave me? Just doing the best I can to figure out how I want to live my life. I’m not going to stop creating and DIYing and decorating just yet. But I am going to keep questioning and doing my darnedest to be open to whatever answers I find.
Anyone else have this struggle? Why do you decorate? I would LOVE to hear your thoughts on the subject.