Hello!!! It has been so long! I am so thankful for the wonderful bloggers who have shared their homes and creativity with us over the past few weeks but now it feels so good to be back here in my creative space! It’s almost like coming home after having been away on a long trip.
Since I’ve been ‘gone’ so much has changed and happened so I want to share where I am in life as well as a few announcements and a sneak peek at what’s coming up over the next few weeks.
My life has completely changed over the past few months. For the first time in my life, ever, I’m not thinking about back to school this year. Because after twelve years of working in public and private schools, this year I am staying home with my babies. And I am so, so happy about that. Not because each day is perfect (I almost laughed out loud at just the thought!). But because I feel 100% like I am exactly where I am supposed to be. And that is a good place to be.
Right now my world feels very small. Make that my world IS very small. It revolves around a two and a half year old ball of energy and an eight week old sweetheart.
Let me tell you – there are days I think I am going to go crazy. when we run out of milk and I can’t imagine loading everyone in the car for the trek to the grocery store, because even a simple trip to run in for one thing turns into a twenty minute endeavor of getting kids in and out of car seats and shopping carts. Because it is so much easier to stay home than try to make it out into public. When I start to wonder if I will ever have free time again. If I will ever travel again. If I will ever browse in a store at my leisure. If I will ever sleep for more than three hours at a time. If I will ever have the energy and brain power to be creative…and actually bring my creative ideas to life. When it feels like my whole world is these two little people.
But other days I realize that I am these two little people’s entire world. They love me with the kind of unconditional devotion that we adults just aren’t capable of. I have a gorgeous two year old who believes the only cure for his boo-boos are my kisses. Who loves for me to sing to him at bedtime. And who says “Come on Mommy. You okay Mommy? Good job Mommy!” when we hike up the huge hill in our neighborhood. And I have the sweetest little newborn. Who doesn’t sleep through the night – but whenever I pick him up he snuggles against me and calms down almost immediately. Who wants to eat constantly – but how miraculous it is that I am able to nourish him using just my own body. Yes, I can’t really be away from him for more than a few hours at a time. But that is because this little person needs me so much, he can’t be away from me for more than a few hours at a time.
So that is where I am at. And it is incredibly beautiful and completely exhausting.
But in spite of all of that, I actually do have quite a few fabulous projects to share with you over the next few weeks – many of which I completed right before baby Asher made his surprise entrance three weeks early. Griffin’s big boy room is finally finished and I also completed the family command center I’ve been thinking about for the past two years. I’ve been continuing my mission to declutter everything and I have lots of DIY art to share with you all.
As always, thanks for reading and sticking with me!
P.S. The newborn and family photos were taken by the wonderful Tselem Photography in Roanoke, VA.
cassie @ primitive & proper says
so happy for you, carrie!!!
Carrie says
Thanks Cassie!
Cecilia says
Lovely photos! I remember those days well..while they felt like they’d never end, they ended to quickly. I think isolation is one of the hardest things a stay at home mom deals with especially with a two year old and newborn. Hang in there, it does get easier. You are definitely doing the right thing!
Carrie says
Thanks Cecilia! I think you are right – I know I am going to have to really work to connect with other people and have conversations with adults other than my husband every day! But even so I feel so much peace about where I am.